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Deviant

by Defunction

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1.
Never Better 01:37
started out so so innocently innocence lost lost a part of me i remember every little thing from the day i tried you let me inside of this hell you've made for me and everyday i live with who i've been try to hide inside of this web of lies but it's collapsing down on me damn it try to kill it deader never ever really better
2.
It 04:17
enough is enough too much of a thing again and again i am suffering more and more i am seeing the pain i bring consume and resume keep on repeating keep it up suck it down fill the hole inside stuff it in let it win no i have no pride overdose comatose even though i try i say i'm ok but guess what i lied gotta get away from it i can't keep on living this god it feels like i'm losing it being swallowed by the abyss with it i keep on hiding from the person that i know that i should be cannot stop when the blackness comes feel it laughing controlling me sneaking and slithering through my veins i hide it so well yet it still remains it can swallow me up it can take the reigns the more that i hate the more power it gains got my soul in a cage under lock and key iron grip always slip i am never free what the fuck is the matter why can't i see a way to escape it's claws clutching me well fuck i am sick of it sick of getting fucked by it fucked by giving into it giving into the dark for it yeah i am so sick of it sick of the taste sick of sucking it suck it by giving myself to it giving myself to the dark for it
3.
Holes 02:42
i got these holes in my heart in my head in my soul full of dirty little urges that just won't let me go i wanna swallow you whole just a lick just a taste cause it gets so fucking hot when you rub your sex in my face and it's so hard to behave when i am what i am which is capable and willing to show you how i'm a man and i know that you'll take me that you want it nice and deep if your hungry enough then i will give you the meat then you'll see then you'll feel then you'll scream and you'll kneel and you'll fly on the high i provide you inside
4.
Deviant 04:32
hey you, ya you got what i wanna see i gotta little game, are your brave enough to play with me? come on, we'll take a shot in the dark i know how to do it so that it would never leave a mark just how far, can we go, so what's the deal? what kind of pain is it that you are gunna make me feel? i want to, through and through, something new, so deep in you it's surreal no matter what i say, i think i'm always gunna be this way... a little deviant. i can do, whatever you want me to can you imagine all the bad things i could do to you? can you take it, can you keep it inside? do you think about the hand that you could hide if you tried? are you scared by the thought of tethers and wax? or do you fantasize about knives while your tied on your back leaving tracks, intact, relax, strapped to the rack, feel the crack, of the whip, make you beg, maybe i'll break our pact no matter what you say, i know your always gunna be this way. a little deviant you can do anything, you can't scare me come on now, don't hold back and give it to me
5.
suppose the time is right for me to give in its time to say goodbye to what what i had been remembing the learning curve and all that had been keep it use it to help this fight to become better but it is trickier than i imagined restarting everything like it was, had been try to get back to where i'd been before this happend but turns out that it is trickier than i imagined over time things i fear become less important and i can see and hear but close my eyes and pretend that all the time i spent in regret and lament enriched experience before i reach the end can't seem to stop myself control this little problem so sick of trying hard and failing to the bottom and everytime i think i'm through turns out that i'm still lost in lost inside of fucking you i'm sinking in the deep end
6.
Just a castaway, an island lost at sea, oh Another lonely day, with no one here but me, oh More loneliness than any man could bear Rescue me before I fall into despair, oh Ill send an s.o.s. to the world Ill send an s.o.s. to the world I hope that someone gets my I hope that someone gets my I hope that someone gets my Message in a bottle, yeah Message in a bottle, yeah A year has passed since I wrote my note But I should have known this right from the start Only hope can keep me together Love can mend your life but Love can break your heart Ill send an s.o.s. to the world Ill send an s.o.s. to the world I hope that someone gets my I hope that someone gets my I hope that someone gets my Message in a bottle, yeah Message in a bottle, yeah Message in a bottle, yeah Message in a bottle, yeah Walked out this morning, dont believe what I saw Hundred billion bottles washed up on the shore Seems Im not alone at being alone Hundred billion castaways, looking for a home Ill send an s.o.s. to the world Ill send an s.o.s. to the world I hope that someone gets my I hope that someone gets my I hope that someone gets my Message in a bottle, yeah Message in a bottle, yeah Message in a bottle, yeah Message in a bottle, yeah Sending out at an s.o.s. Sending out at an s.o.s. Sending out at an s.o.s. Sending out at an s.o.s. Sending out at an s.o.s. Sending out at an s.o.s...
7.
it's hard to pull off, i need to try to pretend that maybe there is a reason for all this in the end but sometimes i'm so lost i think your hand cause i don't know the way and i've got no master plan i'm trapped in my head here it comes again the blackness is my friend cause she never leaves me alone i choke on the hate and the tears i got enough to last me the next 1000 years and I know and I'm aware i'm in a state of disrepair so what happens now, where do you go from here can you crawl back from depths that you dove before your course had veered you just do what you must in order to survive if you take it one day at a time, you might just stay alive but look out my friend cause here it comes again the blackness will be our end if you don't stay strong when you're alone put away all the guilt and the fear we got enough to last us the next 1000 years this is just some wear and tear so don't despair
8.
Amber Lights 03:29
well i been hiding out, keepin down, laying low i'm all dressed up with no place left to go they say enjoy the unknown... well, i know try to push it all aside bluring in my eyes can't control the rise don't know of the size and shape of things to come sittin here, need you near, so i can whisper in your ear... (can you hear me?) i got a half tank of gas amber lights bluring past too bad i'm goin no where fast lights reflect of the glass and the shadows that they cast dance away in the night on the dash while they last time to find a better way to live this life full day by day i want to need to break away
9.
enough is enough too much of a thing again and again i am suffering more and more i am seeing the pain i bring consume and resume keep on repeating keep it up suck it down fill the hole inside stuff it in let it win no i have no pride overdose comatose even though i try i say i'm ok but guess what i lied gotta get away from it i can't keep on living this god it feels like i'm losing it being swallowed by the abyss with it i keep on hiding from the person that i know that i should be cannot stop when the blackness comes feel it laughing controlling me sneaking and slithering through my veins i hide it so well yet it still remains it can swallow me up it can take the reigns the more that i hate the more power it gains got my soul in a cage under lock and key iron grip always slip i am never free what the fuck is the matter why can't i see a way to escape it's claws clutching me well fuck i am sick of it sick of getting fucked by it fucked by giving into it giving into the dark for it yeah i am so sick of it sick of the taste sick of sucking it suck it by giving myself to it giving myself to the dark for it
10.
hey you, ya you got what i wanna see i gotta little game, are your brave enough to play with me? come on, we'll take a shot in the dark i know how to do it so that it would never leave a mark just how far, can we go, so what's the deal? what kind of pain is it that you are gunna make me feel? i want to, through and through, something new, so deep in you it's surreal no matter what i say, i think i'm always gunna be this way... a little deviant. i can do, whatever you want me to can you imagine all the bad things i could do to you? can you take it, can you keep it inside? do you think about the hand that you could hide if you tried? are you scared by the thought of tethers and wax? or do you fantasize about knives while your tied on your back leaving tracks, intact, relax, strapped to the rack, feel the crack, of the whip, make you beg, maybe i'll break our pact no matter what you say, i know your always gunna be this way. a little deviant you can do anything, you can't scare me come on now, don't hold back and give it to me
11.
suppose the time is right for me to give in its time to say goodbye to what what i had been remembing the learning curve and all that had been keep it use it to help this fight to become better but it is trickier than i imagined restarting everything like it was, had been try to get back to where i'd been before this happend but turns out that it is trickier than i imagined over time things i fear become less important and i can see and hear but close my eyes and pretend that all the time i spent in regret and lament enriched experience before i reach the end can't seem to stop myself control this little problem so sick of trying hard and failing to the bottom and everytime i think i'm through turns out that i'm still lost in lost inside of fucking you i'm sinking in the deep end
12.
Falling Star 06:24
what a life that we lead as we feed on eachothers needs this whole charade, the price we pay for this little music box i made so carefully carved your bleeding heart in two the peices and shards, so near and so far make a wish upon your falling star and i know sometimes you think why does it seem so real i know how you feel but that was the deal and now you'll have stand the pain you steal you take what you can since you want to live this way you know you can't stay, but that won't stop you today so easy to keep tomorrow at bay we move on, make new wrongs, cause the right way is gone and we do what we can with the lines in the sand take your time, sip your wine, wait for signs, blur the line in the end, my dear friend, the broken pieces will mend
13.
it is complete now the two ends of time are neatly tied a one way street, she's walking to the end of the line and there she meets the faces she keeps in her heart and mind they say 'good bye' tomorrow, wendy, you're going to die underneath the chilly gray november sky we can make believe that kennedy is still alive and we're shooting for the moon and smiling jackie's driving by and they say 'good try', tomorrow wendy's going to die i told the priest, don't count on any second coming god got his ass kicked the first time he came down here slumming he had the balls to come, the gall to die and then forgive us no, i don't wonder why, i wonder what he thought it would get us hey, hey, good bye, tomorrow wendy's going to die only god says jump, so i set the time cause if he ever saw her, it was through these eyes of mine and if he ever suffered it was me who did his crying hey hey, good bye, tomorrow wendy's going to die hey hey, good bye, tomorrow wendy your going to die
14.
Replaced 09:04
i try to keep it straight in my mind when i look you right in the eyes and you tell me that you're standing right on the line but that line keeps pushing further it's not mattering so much over time seems like i'm losing my place not sure what i thought i would face but i'm watching as i'm being slowly replaced and that dream that i had seems likes its slipping through my fingers like sand we had our time in the sun my friend but all good things... and now i am someone else living inside this shell these walls inside my mind are all it leaves behind no matter what you do it is there next to you and it won't go away because you want it to stay and even when you try so hard to say goodbye but there will come a day when you will let it fade deny your life pretend its right and everything is fine you've been bluring the worlds and crossing the lines to make it real real as you can for a time will show you what i know you will have to face that ugly place you make your choice you pick your place

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Kipp Grose: vocals, guitars, bass, keyboards, programming.

All songs written by Kipp Grose unless otherwise noted.

Arrangement, performance, engineering, production and drum programming: Kipp Grose.

Sound, graphic, layout and web design: Kipp Grose.

Management, legal and booking: kippgrose@live.ca.

Additional programming, performance and production on "It" and "Trickier Than I Imagined": Joshua Hemming for Line 14: www.line14.net

Joshua Hemming appears courtesy of Pawn Shop Records: forehigher.com/blog/?page_id=229

"Message In A Bottle" originally written and arranged by Sting.
Taken from the album "Reggatta de Blanc" by The Police.

"Tomorrow Wendy" originally written and arranged by Andy Prieboy and Johnette Napolitano.
Taken from the album "Bloodletting" by Concrete Blond.

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released September 1, 2009

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