1. |
Never Better
01:37
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started out so
so innocently
innocence lost
lost a part of me
i remember every little thing
from the day i tried
you let me inside
of this hell you've made for me
and everyday i live with who i've been
try to hide inside
of this web of lies
but it's collapsing down on me
damn it
try to
kill it
deader
never
ever
really
better
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2. |
It
04:17
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enough is enough too much of a thing
again and again i am suffering
more and more i am seeing the pain i bring
consume and resume keep on repeating
keep it up suck it down fill the hole inside
stuff it in let it win no i have no pride
overdose comatose even though i try
i say i'm ok but guess what i lied
gotta get away from it
i can't keep on living this
god it feels like i'm losing it
being swallowed by the abyss
with it i keep on hiding from
the person that i know that i should be
cannot stop when the blackness comes
feel it laughing controlling me
sneaking and slithering through my veins
i hide it so well yet it still remains
it can swallow me up it can take the reigns
the more that i hate the more power it gains
got my soul in a cage under lock and key
iron grip always slip i am never free
what the fuck is the matter why can't i see
a way to escape it's claws clutching me
well fuck i am sick of it
sick of getting fucked by it
fucked by giving into it
giving into the dark for it
yeah i am so sick of it
sick of the taste
sick of sucking it
suck it by giving myself to it
giving myself to the dark for it
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3. |
Holes
02:42
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i got these holes in my heart
in my head
in my soul
full of dirty little urges that just won't let me go
i wanna swallow you whole
just a lick
just a taste
cause it gets so fucking hot when you rub your sex in my face
and it's so hard to behave
when i am what i am
which is capable and willing to show you how i'm a man
and i know that you'll take me
that you want it nice and deep
if your hungry enough then i will give you the meat
then you'll see
then you'll feel
then you'll scream
and you'll kneel
and you'll fly
on the high
i provide
you inside
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4. |
Deviant
04:32
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hey you, ya you got what i wanna see
i gotta little game, are your brave enough to play with me?
come on, we'll take a shot in the dark
i know how to do it so that it would never leave a mark
just how far, can we go, so what's the deal?
what kind of pain is it that you are gunna make me feel?
i want to, through and through, something new,
so deep in you it's surreal
no matter what i say, i think i'm always gunna be this way...
a little deviant.
i can do, whatever you want me to
can you imagine all the bad things i could do to you?
can you take it, can you keep it inside?
do you think about the hand that you could hide if you tried?
are you scared by the thought of tethers and wax?
or do you fantasize about knives while your tied on your back
leaving tracks, intact, relax, strapped to the rack,
feel the crack, of the whip, make you beg, maybe i'll break our pact
no matter what you say, i know your always gunna be this way.
a little deviant
you can do anything, you can't scare me
come on now, don't hold back and give it to me
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5. |
Trickier Than I Imagined
04:03
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suppose the time is right
for me to give in
its time to say goodbye
to what what i had been
remembing the learning curve
and all that had been
keep it use it to help this fight
to become better
but it is trickier
than i imagined
restarting everything
like it was, had been
try to get back to where i'd been
before this happend
but turns out that it is trickier
than i imagined
over time things i fear
become less important
and i can see and hear
but close my eyes and pretend
that all the time i spent
in regret and lament
enriched experience
before i reach the end
can't seem to stop myself
control this little problem
so sick of trying hard
and failing to the bottom
and everytime i think i'm through
turns out that i'm still lost in
lost inside of fucking you
i'm sinking in the deep end
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6. |
Message In A Bottle
06:20
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Just a castaway, an island lost at sea, oh
Another lonely day, with no one here but me, oh
More loneliness than any man could bear
Rescue me before I fall into despair, oh
Ill send an s.o.s. to the world
Ill send an s.o.s. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle, yeah
Message in a bottle, yeah
A year has passed since I wrote my note
But I should have known this right from the start
Only hope can keep me together
Love can mend your life but
Love can break your heart
Ill send an s.o.s. to the world
Ill send an s.o.s. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle, yeah
Message in a bottle, yeah
Message in a bottle, yeah
Message in a bottle, yeah
Walked out this morning, dont believe what I saw
Hundred billion bottles washed up on the shore
Seems Im not alone at being alone
Hundred billion castaways, looking for a home
Ill send an s.o.s. to the world
Ill send an s.o.s. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle, yeah
Message in a bottle, yeah
Message in a bottle, yeah
Message in a bottle, yeah
Sending out at an s.o.s.
Sending out at an s.o.s.
Sending out at an s.o.s.
Sending out at an s.o.s.
Sending out at an s.o.s.
Sending out at an s.o.s...
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7. |
State Of Disrepair
04:41
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it's hard to pull off, i need to try to pretend
that maybe there is a reason for all this in the end
but sometimes i'm so lost i think your hand
cause i don't know the way and i've got no master plan
i'm trapped in my head
here it comes again
the blackness is my friend
cause she never leaves me alone
i choke on the hate and the tears
i got enough to last me
the next 1000 years
and I know and I'm aware
i'm in a state of disrepair
so what happens now, where do you go from here
can you crawl back from depths that you dove before your course had veered
you just do what you must in order to survive
if you take it one day at a time, you might just stay alive
but look out my friend
cause here it comes again
the blackness will be our end
if you don't stay strong when you're alone
put away all the guilt and the fear
we got enough to last us
the next 1000 years
this is just some wear and tear
so don't despair
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8. |
Amber Lights
03:29
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well i been hiding out, keepin down, laying low
i'm all dressed up with no place left to go
they say enjoy the unknown... well, i know
try to push it all aside
bluring in my eyes
can't control the rise
don't know of the size and shape of things to come
sittin here, need you near, so i can whisper in your ear...
(can you hear me?)
i got a half tank of gas
amber lights bluring past
too bad i'm goin no where fast
lights reflect of the glass
and the shadows that they cast
dance away in the night
on the dash
while they last
time to find a better way
to live this life full day by day
i want to
need to
break away
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9. |
It (Line 14 remix)
03:56
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enough is enough too much of a thing
again and again i am suffering
more and more i am seeing the pain i bring
consume and resume keep on repeating
keep it up suck it down fill the hole inside
stuff it in let it win no i have no pride
overdose comatose even though i try
i say i'm ok but guess what i lied
gotta get away from it
i can't keep on living this
god it feels like i'm losing it
being swallowed by the abyss
with it i keep on hiding from
the person that i know that i should be
cannot stop when the blackness comes
feel it laughing controlling me
sneaking and slithering through my veins
i hide it so well yet it still remains
it can swallow me up it can take the reigns
the more that i hate the more power it gains
got my soul in a cage under lock and key
iron grip always slip i am never free
what the fuck is the matter why can't i see
a way to escape it's claws clutching me
well fuck i am sick of it
sick of getting fucked by it
fucked by giving into it
giving into the dark for it
yeah i am so sick of it
sick of the taste
sick of sucking it
suck it by giving myself to it
giving myself to the dark for it
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10. |
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hey you, ya you got what i wanna see
i gotta little game, are your brave enough to play with me?
come on, we'll take a shot in the dark
i know how to do it so that it would never leave a mark
just how far, can we go, so what's the deal?
what kind of pain is it that you are gunna make me feel?
i want to, through and through, something new,
so deep in you it's surreal
no matter what i say, i think i'm always gunna be this way...
a little deviant.
i can do, whatever you want me to
can you imagine all the bad things i could do to you?
can you take it, can you keep it inside?
do you think about the hand that you could hide if you tried?
are you scared by the thought of tethers and wax?
or do you fantasize about knives while your tied on your back
leaving tracks, intact, relax, strapped to the rack,
feel the crack, of the whip, make you beg, maybe i'll break our pact
no matter what you say, i know your always gunna be this way.
a little deviant
you can do anything, you can't scare me
come on now, don't hold back and give it to me
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11. |
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suppose the time is right
for me to give in
its time to say goodbye
to what what i had been
remembing the learning curve
and all that had been
keep it use it to help this fight
to become better
but it is trickier
than i imagined
restarting everything
like it was, had been
try to get back to where i'd been
before this happend
but turns out that it is trickier
than i imagined
over time things i fear
become less important
and i can see and hear
but close my eyes and pretend
that all the time i spent
in regret and lament
enriched experience
before i reach the end
can't seem to stop myself
control this little problem
so sick of trying hard
and failing to the bottom
and everytime i think i'm through
turns out that i'm still lost in
lost inside of fucking you
i'm sinking in the deep end
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12. |
Falling Star
06:24
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what a life that we lead as we feed on eachothers needs
this whole charade, the price we pay
for this little music box i made
so carefully carved your bleeding heart in two
the peices and shards, so near and so far
make a wish upon your falling star
and i know
sometimes you think
why does it seem so real
i know how you feel
but that was the deal
and now you'll have stand the pain you steal
you take what you can since you want to live this way
you know you can't stay, but that won't stop you today
so easy to keep tomorrow at bay
we move on, make new wrongs, cause the right way is gone
and we do what we can with the lines in the sand
take your time, sip your wine, wait for signs, blur the line
in the end, my dear friend, the broken pieces will mend
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13. |
Tomorrow Wendy
04:37
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it is complete now the two ends of time are neatly tied
a one way street, she's walking to the end of the line
and there she meets the faces she keeps in her heart and mind
they say 'good bye' tomorrow, wendy, you're going to die
underneath the chilly gray november sky
we can make believe that kennedy is still alive and
we're shooting for the moon and smiling jackie's driving by and
they say 'good try', tomorrow wendy's going to die
i told the priest, don't count on any second coming
god got his ass kicked the first time he came down here slumming
he had the balls to come, the gall to die and then forgive us
no, i don't wonder why, i wonder what he thought it would get us
hey, hey, good bye, tomorrow wendy's going to die
only god says jump, so i set the time
cause if he ever saw her, it was through these eyes of mine
and if he ever suffered it was me who did his crying
hey hey, good bye, tomorrow wendy's going to die
hey hey, good bye, tomorrow wendy your going to die
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14. |
Replaced
09:04
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i try to keep it straight in my mind
when i look you right in the eyes
and you tell me that you're standing right on the line
but that line keeps pushing further
it's not mattering so much over time
seems like i'm losing my place
not sure what i thought i would face
but i'm watching as i'm being slowly replaced
and that dream that i had
seems likes its slipping through my fingers like sand
we had our time in the sun my friend
but all good things...
and now i am someone else
living inside this shell
these walls inside my mind
are all it leaves behind
no matter what you do
it is there next to you
and it won't go away
because you want it to stay
and even when you try
so hard to say goodbye
but there will come a day
when you will let it fade
deny your life
pretend its right
and everything is fine
you've been bluring the worlds
and crossing the lines
to make it real
real as you can for a
time will show you
what i know you
will have to face
that ugly place
you make your choice
you pick your place
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Defunction Sudbury, Ontario
d3fuNcTi0n is the noise I create when I get mad and sad. A personal project of musical exploration.
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